I Don't Want To

I don't want to look in the mirror 

I hate what I see

I don't want to think that way

But I can't escape 

I'm not beautiful

That's what my mind says

I'm told I am

I don't believe their words

All God's creations are beauty

Why can't I agree?

Everyone else is pretty

Everyone but me

I don't want to think this way

God loves me

They love me

Why can't I love me?

Why do I try to cover up

To hide?

The oversized clothes 

The dresses and skirts

Just there to mask my insecurities 

One day I'll be pretty 

Or maybe not 

I'm not happy with me

Will I ever be?